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Saturday, 28 November 2009
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WWJD
WWJD? I don't know; I am waiting; I am hoping; and I am looking upon.
I wonder, I am like an ant, crawling from one place to another day after day; thinking that I am the most hardworking among all; but once the path is broken, I can no longer follow, then head to a wrong way, get lost, that's it.
I wonder, I am like a dolphin, swimming in the big sea, thinking to go here and there; but without the signal, I can no longer follow, then realize that, I am still swimming among others in the sea... a big dark sea. Then head to nowhere, get lost, that's it.
Thursday, 26 November 2009
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4 seas crackers
Exhausted... This week zoomed away so quickly as I have so much to do. I haven't even had a proper lunch throughout the week... a bag of 4 seas sesame cracker as lunch everyday... today, I nearly choked myself to death as I rushed to the G10 activity at lunch time. Tomorrow will be the same. No difference...
Got home and had a quick dinner... turned on the computer coz I really need to complete the application and the statement of intent. But honestly, I am so tired to the point that I don't wanna do anything. Looking at the complicated application and the SOI, I don't know what I can do. How do I rush everything by Dec 1?
So tired... Life is tough and ... pathetic... eh?
Saturday, 21 November 2009
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first time I feel winter here
It's under 15 during the week and Tuesday was the worst. Why? It was the Sports Day and it's freezing!!! Being the MC and stood @the stadium for the whole day. Although I enjoyed MCing, after the sickness, I could barely handle the weather, the drowsiness from the medicine and the creativity required at the same time. When I was home, the first thing was to make some ginger hot drink and the second was to take a hot shower.
Thursday was the worst day so far in the past 4 years at school. I tend not to remember anything, to make myself feel better. Anyway, I don't know where to start. Well, just realize that, when it happened, I really wanna had a pair of ears to listen to me, but then, of course, I ended up working until the end of the day. But thanks Gobbel for the positive encouragement.
Now I know why, the older we are, the smaller amount of memory we have. The reason is to... forget what needs to be forgotten and remember what we need to forget.
This is the last week of November and I still haven't started. I keep reminding myself to renew my OCT membership... usually... while taking my shower, but I never remember when I am in front of the computer... better do it now...
Miss you a lot, Helen Yeung.
Sunday, 15 November 2009
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the dearth of faith... still
Probably I had slept too much in the past week, I couldn't sleep well at night and the only thing I could do was, believe it or not, to finish all the marking I accumalated over the week... Woke up so early yesterday and today. Cooked some congee and finally my taste buds work again!!!
Met up Mui @ starbucks for coffee. I DID warn myself to have a cafferine-free drink but once I got into the store, the aroma was too irresistible. I ended up having a tall black... heeee
It was a meaningful talk though. Yes, I guess I understand what you mean. Maybe everything is waiting for me but it's all about the first step. When the pride kicks in, I just stop at that point. The root of the problem is the dearth of faith. Seriously, God really destructs me "so well" that I am too "humble" to believe that I am nothing, and nothing belongs to me. I don't even have the gut to take the initiation. Indeed, God is waiting for my initiation... I guess? Even now, I don't have the faith to take your advice... All the testimonies ensure God's existence, maybe God wants to work on me too... not sure...
Anyway, let me laid-back for 2 more days, then I will complete the 500-word thesis. What will happen? Who knows. I'm actually too little to ever think of controlling my own life. Please, if possible, remember me in your prayer...
My 4th MoH duty... to my dearest Mui... May 2010.
Wednesday, 11 November 2009
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on sick leave
Having 4-day sick leave and this is my third day. Getting much better compared to Sunday Monday. However, I'm still very drowsy, either caused by the medicine or the virus. Who cares... as long as I can sleep non-stop.
Will see my doctor tomorrow morning. Hopefully I can get back to work on Friday...
"Do you wanna take the H1N1 test?"
"No, it's alright. Take it as the normal flu... to make me feel better"...
"Up to you then, but stay home and sleep... anyway, you won't have the energy to go anywhere."I just remember this little conversation during the consultation Monday morning... coz, I was too dizzy...
